ok ok, this year, im not gonna have some super long new year resolution,
im nt gonna talk abt how i wan my life to be. Instead, i wanna talked abt all the intersting memories that 2009 has left in me and has changed my way of thinking.
firstly, it was this timing one year ago, when me and nigel decided to host a new year countdown party. friends supported immediately and came. It was great, but as its the first time, we learnt of stuff we needed to prepare. then, 20 april came, most of all started poly, everything gradually change. lifestyle, studies, ccas, friends. we were more and more into the alumni then, going back every now and then. time flew by with a blink of an eye, it was already teachers day, when the next big gathering happened, but still, everyone were among themselves with their own plan, we had hardly enough time for others. the first real big gathering was christmas day, nt long ago, yet leaving a memory one would almost never forget, the tons of partying, joy and laughter. By then, as i went pass all saints home, deep inside, i noe something was missing, it has been years since i last visited. till the very last day of the year, with time, i went in, even though its just for a mere few secs, memories of many many years immediately came back, the ice kaching, the laughing and visiting, all seems like yesterday. walking down pipit road, to circuit road, having 80 cents ice kachang, taking away tutu kueh, having him in our house, eating fried toukwa with light sauce. all the stuff that we did and i've learnt. yet, on the 17th nov 2000, it all ended that night.
just a few days before that, it was the last time i saw him. the very moment i ended my last day of pri 3, my grandmother was standing at the gate, waiting for me, its the first time she fetched me, i was happy, till the news was broken, i was shocked, lost, devastated. i went home, ponder over it, preparing myself. went over hours later, stayed there for 3 days, each time when tears were abt to filled, i told myself, its nth, i cant cry. i tried to act brave, but years later, when thoughts came back, i realised how silly i was, how much i missed u, each time i hear the song, ever thought of u, tears filled my eyes again. how i wish everything could happen again, the food, the laughter, the joy. well, at least on the 31st dec 2009, i visited you. and this year, im certain that im gonna do it again. i miss you.